Stained Hands and a Happy Heart...

So the past few days have been hard. I'm not going to lie. I've been dealing with some scary thoughts and what seems to be a lot like depression. Could be PMS, could be general sadness. Whatever it is/was, it is/was scary. But I'm finding that God uses these awful times in my life to help me understand the fact that I am completely dependent on Him. I always seem to think that I can make it just fine by myself, and then I come crashing back down and run to Him. But I wouldn't trade these times for anything, because of the way they affect my relationship with Christ.

I'm starting to feel better about being single again. It still sucks to see him around, and I feel like I've lost a friend. I hate it, but I guess that that's just how it's going to have to be for now.

I'm seriously enjoying Microbiology this semester. Like, it's actually FUN to me. I think that's just further proof that I'm right where I'm supposed to be major-wise. I love Dr. Wright, and for whatever reason I'm able to concentrate very well in there. Even Organic doesn't seem as bad this semester (but give me a couple weeks and I'll probably have a different opinion...). I'm pretty sure that I'm going to drop my religious studies class today. I'm really tired of hearing Dr. Shapiro bash the Bible/Jesus/God/organized religion in general. I don't appreciate the fact that he presented the class as a "strictly secular, academic study of the Bible", and yet he invites disparaging and disrespectful comments about the Bible, Christianity, and Christ. Stuff like that messes with my head sometimes, and I just don't know that I'm strong enough to fight it. However, I want that 3-hour A credit for my GPA's sake. But I've prayed about it, and I feel like I need to drop it. We'll see...

I should probably work on physics now, since I have a quiz in a few hours...Toodles. :)